To those who need to hear this: I have been using marijuana for the last year because it has been the only thing providing me some relief ftom my stomach issues. I don’t know what I have and doctors are still trying to diagnose me.
Last night, I was smoking marijuana outside at 2 am. I generally try to smoke late so the smell won’t disturb neighbors (I’m already looked down upon because I’m not as yeshivish as my neighbors). When one of the neighbors came home with their family, they didn’t see me, but they smelled the marijuana. And they began making comments – not positive ones.
I heard them and honestly I was mortified. I felt so bad from it! No, there was no marijuana party happening. No, I wasn’t just “smoking up.”
I felt your disgust towards me. I am not a bad person and I am definitely not throwing drug parties. How could you say something like that? What about Dan L’Kaf Zchus?
I lost almost half my body weight this year, I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, and I’m just trying to get a little relief. Is that too much to ask for?
Please remember you never know who can hear you and you never know what someone is going through.